Being Patient Is Hard

Well orion and are were texting last night and it went really well again and he said that he just needs time to figure out what he wants and i told him i will be patient and have faith but if he is not gunna try to do what he needs to do to be with me then he needs to tell me so i can go ahead and start ignoring what happened yesterday because the more we han g out and the more we talk to him the more im love him and so he cannot take forever to decide what he wants. I really want to go over there tonight i dont know if i should or not but if he asks im going to...i told my sister about it last night and this morning i tldmy mom with a little bit more detail she made me feel good about my decisions yesterday because she knew he treated me right untill he let his feelings get the best of him and i really want to be treated how he treats me i just want to be with him and my mom knows that i keep thinking if i leave for college next august im going to find someone who is better than orion but i dont wanna go to college for more than a year maybe two years at the most but in my heart and mind i know i dont want to be with anyone else but orion. I've used up 6 months trying to get over him and i am still not over him, heck, im still in love with him!....And i know he is still in love with me too......Well needless to say my mom told me that im 17 and i need to make this decision on my own and not let anyone else make it for me i can ask advice and base my decision on the advice but over all it needs to be my decision...which made me feel a heck of alot better too...because depending on his decision i already know what im going to do theres going to be alotta things he has to do in order to get thingsback to how they were and he knows that. I can't wait untill he makes his decision. Im not a very patient person so waiting on something like this is really hard for me to wait on. But the Lord will help me be patient and also have some faith anyway i leave this on the note that i love orion cant wait to talk to him today:)